There is something bored, something rather unusual about her. She provides, in any circumstance or situation of those perhaps a bit too much like their reality, a break or fissure in their demographic. She is the epitomal social black sheep.
In any other basic situation she could step back, analyze her options and always seem to make the most of her life. Nowadays, it warrants a standing ovation if she gets done with her chores in time to make breakfast. Usually she spends most of the day on one task unintentionally. It will be the first very important task in a goal series or means to great accomplishment. But she is so very easily discouraged even these things are not often bragged about.
Tuesday, June 12, 2018
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Photo a Day
This guy! Did cool work.
http://photooftheday.hughcrawford.com/
A photo a day 18 years straight doesn't seem that odd any more, but these pictures are unique, regardless. Maybe it has something to do with the things we choose to look at, for example, anything revolving around death seems to attract a lot of people. Struggle, fight, art, underdog, the unknown - these are not so common themes everyday on facebook, - I noticed at a young age that somehow, what you listen to, who you talk to, what you talk about, and what you take pictures of defines you in a lot of ways. I wonder why? We used to have great conversations and at least smile and hug on contact, and now we never talk but we are "friends of facebook." What is this mad world? If you do care, where are you and what good is a phone or facebook after all if you never use it? ? If you don't really care, when did you stop, and why bother with something you don't care about?
I don't really think anything is complicated. I think there's just not enough love going around right now. If I accomplish anything in my life I hope at least somebody will love a little more, more often.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Researchers are Diagnosed as a Last Resort
I am going to use this lovely little corner of the world wide web to document my experience starting my own company and hopefully building something that can last for many future generations. As a talented musician and hair artist, I would like to build something that can showcase all of my talents and gifts while being an invaluable resource for the community. Being very capable with the art of styling hair and with getting to know people and enjoying their company, I believe starting a business using these things I'm proficient at would be a good step in a good direction for me. I have a gift and it's my responsibility to give it to the world. I think there must be a way to explain the cost and time - value of services to clients in a way that is efficient and fair to the client and the artist involved. There's a lot of crooked business that goes on in the beauty industry and I intend to do something about it - i intend to bring honesty and integrity to the business, in a way that is fair and profitable to the artist but not robbing the guest of their wits and experience.
And in the way that things normally don't sit right with me when I don't understand them, so is the perspective of the loss of beauty. I had always disagreed with these people saying that they didn't understand the beauty was in the awareness, or the display, or the grotesque extrapolation of relationships. But after watching "Why Beauty Matters" by Philosopher Roger Scruton I have to say that it suddenly makes more sense. There is something beautiful all around you if you are willing to see it - and it is the artist's job to bring attention to that which is beautiful. I believe, in this way, we can all be right about what we consider to be worth attaining (as far as beauty inside or out goes).
I'm having trouble on focusing on what exactly it was I was aiming at accomplishing when I started this journal. I thought, at first, I would document this experience that I am going to have trying to build some sort of system and art from the ground up. But as I'm looking at prices for shears and talking to my friends about moving down, and hearing the tone of my grandmother's voice and the tone of Oki's voice, oh, it seems so great. I am really excited about it. But I'm scared - petrified. I've made mistakes before - drastic ones, in dealing with people, coworkers, clients, friends, and family. I worry that I will repeat similar or even more drastic mistakes. I'm sure I will too, and I know that shouldn't stop me - I know there's a learning curve and I know I can't have the answers for everything. I just want to make sure my heart is in the right place doing this. I would absolutely hate to be 5-10 years into some sort of investment and then find out I was completely wrong about something - or find out that something is completely different than I expected.
I know, this is going to happen too, and I should be scared of acting just because things of conflict will happen, just because adversity exists. In fact, the fact that mistakes are made so often should encourage me to be more excited and gung-ho about getting involved with doing things, trying things more often, new things, new experiences, this should be something that I want to practice - because the more I do it, the better surely I will get at these things.
There's something I think I'm not taking into consideration though - actually, no,m I know I am not taking it into consideration. My health. I'm no good for this long term - chemical systems/cardio thing. I sweat so much, and there will be added challenges now - the dog, the cat, the amazing but still human life partner - surely he'll have problems with columbus that for some reason i can't predicat now and won't be able to "fix" or "repair" in the future. And if I had perfect health or if there were no added difficulties, this wouldn't be so daunting. But considering my history I am just so freaking scared that I am capable of doing just really stupid things.
It's ok. really stupid is ok. I can learn. I can make mistakes, I can take advice from peers, and I can make changes and improvements. I can make movements in the direction of the life I want to live. I can be a little healthier, walk a little more, smile more often, watch more videos, read more books, take more notes, and fall in love with everything I am in love with all over again as many times as I want - it's ok to be excited, giddy, hopeful, and in general looking forward to the future.
Also, things like this give me hope for the future, for everything. Check it out:
The Living Matrix: The Science of Healing
And in the way that things normally don't sit right with me when I don't understand them, so is the perspective of the loss of beauty. I had always disagreed with these people saying that they didn't understand the beauty was in the awareness, or the display, or the grotesque extrapolation of relationships. But after watching "Why Beauty Matters" by Philosopher Roger Scruton I have to say that it suddenly makes more sense. There is something beautiful all around you if you are willing to see it - and it is the artist's job to bring attention to that which is beautiful. I believe, in this way, we can all be right about what we consider to be worth attaining (as far as beauty inside or out goes).
I'm having trouble on focusing on what exactly it was I was aiming at accomplishing when I started this journal. I thought, at first, I would document this experience that I am going to have trying to build some sort of system and art from the ground up. But as I'm looking at prices for shears and talking to my friends about moving down, and hearing the tone of my grandmother's voice and the tone of Oki's voice, oh, it seems so great. I am really excited about it. But I'm scared - petrified. I've made mistakes before - drastic ones, in dealing with people, coworkers, clients, friends, and family. I worry that I will repeat similar or even more drastic mistakes. I'm sure I will too, and I know that shouldn't stop me - I know there's a learning curve and I know I can't have the answers for everything. I just want to make sure my heart is in the right place doing this. I would absolutely hate to be 5-10 years into some sort of investment and then find out I was completely wrong about something - or find out that something is completely different than I expected.
I know, this is going to happen too, and I should be scared of acting just because things of conflict will happen, just because adversity exists. In fact, the fact that mistakes are made so often should encourage me to be more excited and gung-ho about getting involved with doing things, trying things more often, new things, new experiences, this should be something that I want to practice - because the more I do it, the better surely I will get at these things.
There's something I think I'm not taking into consideration though - actually, no,m I know I am not taking it into consideration. My health. I'm no good for this long term - chemical systems/cardio thing. I sweat so much, and there will be added challenges now - the dog, the cat, the amazing but still human life partner - surely he'll have problems with columbus that for some reason i can't predicat now and won't be able to "fix" or "repair" in the future. And if I had perfect health or if there were no added difficulties, this wouldn't be so daunting. But considering my history I am just so freaking scared that I am capable of doing just really stupid things.
It's ok. really stupid is ok. I can learn. I can make mistakes, I can take advice from peers, and I can make changes and improvements. I can make movements in the direction of the life I want to live. I can be a little healthier, walk a little more, smile more often, watch more videos, read more books, take more notes, and fall in love with everything I am in love with all over again as many times as I want - it's ok to be excited, giddy, hopeful, and in general looking forward to the future.
Also, things like this give me hope for the future, for everything. Check it out:
The Living Matrix: The Science of Healing
The Thinking Girl
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